i am but a mere two weeks from beginning my yoga works teacher training program. i have been waiting/planning for this for almost a year. i've done the research, paid all the bills, got all the books, met the teacher... and yet, i can't seem to shake this nagging feeling of fear.
i know this is the right course for me to be taking - i know that this training will enrich my mind, body, and spirit. however, i can't help but worry that i am once again embarking on yet another career that i will not be able to be hired to do.
after ten years of training to be an actor, a college degree in acting and theater education and a license to teach theater in the state of massachusetts and still having no job prospects that directly relate to acting nor educating actors... i suppose i may have reason to be a bit paranoid.
while it is my intention (and hope) to be able to work as a yoga teacher, i have to also remember what made me want to do this in the first place - which was solely about me; about allowing myself to deepen my understanding and practice of yoga in order to live a healthier and happier life. now at the risk of sounding too new age-y: all i have to do is allow myself to be okay with where i am, without passing judgment on about where i want to be or think i should be.
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